[ we all devise our own demise ]

we all devise our own demise so why not make it worth something, when i go out i wann go out on a chariot of fire, we will all die off soon some choose to take their demise in their own hands and end it then and there, but do you think they would take it back or was it to get away from themselves, not away from me but from their own sanity, there own satisfaction yet, as close as ive come ive never taken matters like this in my own hands for, i may not be satisified with life but i may not be able to, as much as ive thought about me demise i could never do it, theres so much more to explore, to find out, to expierence yet never is a figure used until they feel the need to end this never as never is determined to have a specific duration, but as hard as it seems now it will get better as long as you learn to deal with shit that happens but for now never will i devise my own demise [ we all devise our own demise ]