Tempting suicide

I cut and bleed, It doesn't matter. Death is calling me, It's saying "come on, cut again." I want to die, I hurt so badly. I'm always crying. I feel pathetic. People kill my heart, Not much left. I try to die, My attempts fail. Does it mean I was meant to live? Just kill me now, I hate life. It always screws me up, and leaves me hanging there. But just answer this, Why can't I die? Tempting suicide